Peace, be still. How do you get peace and keep it? Does peace mean the absence of chaos, turbulence and dark despair or is peace inspite of these? Can peace sit with turmoil or does peace disappear once storms are on the horizon? Is peace a companion of hope and joy or is peace a loner?
These questions are what I was exploring with this artwork.
Mixed media on paper
I learned so much from embarking on this painting. Not only did I learn techniques, but I got some life lessons for the journey.
Below was the first step of the process
I was having a blue day and decided to paint my feelings. I wasn’t sure if this woman was dead or alive but she was lifeless in a way. Numb? Dead to the world? Who knows. I just resonated with her.
I was OK with it for some months. Then as laughter began to seep back into my life, scattered like wild flowers here and there, I began to think of moving her on to a new season of life. I wanted her to be calm with an inward peace that didn’t sway by external events. I also wanted to show that she was now looking after herself, appreciating her self and realizing she is beautiful.
So I gave her face a makeover
Then proceeded to surround her with wild flowers
At this stage I felt she was good. I was OK with the painting. In fact I was quite happy. Then came that niggling feeling that there was more. What would happen if I pushed a bit more? Would I lose what I had achieved so far or end up somewhere beautiful? I could imagine it but it wasn’t clear and I didn’t know if I was up to it. But I took a chance and…
Arrived on the other side of good and found beauty. Story of my life. There’s more on the other side of good but it’s a risk.
It is interesting trying to keep up with my brain. A tangled web of colours, shapes, gold, clouds and flowers. This mixed media self portrait attempts to portray my world.